Thursday, December 27, 2007

Tony Chronicles Part 3

Kumain kami sa Kenny Rogers' nung 17th with Daduds. Nung nasa counter na ako to order, lapit si Letku.

"mommy, sa akin chicken ah."

AKO: ok.

LETKU: tsaka gusto ko may Mang Tomas.

AKO: baby, gravy?

LETKU: hindeeee.... Mang Tomas... basta Mang Tomas gusto ko.



Nagkikilitian kami ni Dale sa kwarto nang bigla siyang pumasok. Napatigil ako bigla na parang caught-in-the-act ang dating.

LETKU: Wah!!! kunwari ka pa! Nakita ko yun! Naglalambingan kayo! Lagi na lang siya! Siya! Siya! Kasi mas mahal mo yan!


para naman akong nahulihang may kabit.


Kanina nagpaalam si Dale sa nanay ko na magko-computer siya. Pinayagan naman. Eh nagpaalam din si Letku. Gusto niya, siya ang mauna. Napagalitan siya ni Mommy. At sabi sa kanya eh umuwi na nga siya sa Lola niya (byenan ko). Hala! Ngumawa. Sabay hawak sa telepono, akmang tatawagan ang Lola niya... mega hagulgol siya sabay sabing:

"wala namang nagmamahal sa kin...."


di naman tinuloy ang pagtawag. nagkulong sa kwarto.

ayun. pag uwi ko, may pasalubong ako sa kanya, syempre pa. *hehe*

what happened during the Holidays

put up the tree with Tony. Dale was in charge of the star.

accompanied Mom when she bought her new N70.

bought gifts for family and friends with Mom (and sometimes, Anea and the kids).

finished Level 4. Failed the exam, but passed the Level. Galing, di ba... hehe.

met with my classmates at Greenhills for dinner. Was stuck with Jaime (a classmate), drunk (he, not me), in the MRT. Oh, God. Don't ask what happened.

met with Erika, Dan, Moe, Bon, and Chito... ate at Bubba Gump. Met with Ronald and the kids after to buy the kids' new clothes. Ate at KRs.

bought a lantern with Mom and Nald.

went to my Tito's house in Cavite, stayed there the whole day.

celebrated Dale's birthday, both at school and at home.

made some Christmas decorations (balls and paint and glitter)

completed the 9-day 4am mass (simbang gabi).

went to Ela's baptism and saw my relatives, including Chits who came home this year.

went to Ronald's friend's son's (whew) birthday party at KRs. yes, sinama niya kami. aba... hehe.

received lots of presents... and comments!

spent Christmas eve with my family and relatives.

went online and chatted with Dad.

chatted with someone who suddenly remembered me because of DSL, and told me to stop wearing glasses. duh?! Vic, bulag ako pag alang glasses. Wait til i get contacts ulit.

overslept, forgot and was not able to go to Church on Christmas Day. yes, i felt so bad. don't rub it in.

watched Enteng Kabisote with the whole family. yes, including Bea. Oops... excluding Keith and Eka coz they weren't at home that time.

Today, watched Sakal, Sakali, Saklolo with my Mom, Anea, and my mom's friend. Ate at Amici, then at Starbucks, then had juice from Naked. Anea bought me some shades. We bought some toys for the two kulits.

Dale slipped, banged his chin on the stairs and got a bad booboo... aw... it looked so bad in person. it's swollen. i thought he lost his tooth. the inside was clipped as well. f***.

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whew! i think that sums it up... i'm sure i forgot a lot of things to include here. i think i had only 2 or 3 free days from the 2nd of week of December til today.

i am sooooooo tired. so tired, that i spent Christmas eve injecting myself with Recormon, lying down, gettin up again, and downing myself in herbs. so tired, that my brother and sister-in-law and my mom started fussing over me and talking about transplants. wah!!!

but, i'm a lot better now. i told them to take it easy with all the fuss. anyone who got 3 hours of sleep for 10 days straight will feel freaky tired like me, too. no biggie.

anyway, the rush is over... New Year's is not so tiresome in our house. I can breathe normally now. =)

Tuesday, December 18, 2007


busy days are here again! so, wala munang sharing of thoughts ngayong mga araw na ito... pictures na lang muna ha... birthday party ni Dale sa school tomorrow. Halos araw-araw ang lakad ko. i start my day by waking up at 3:30am to go to the 4am mass. and i sleep 12mn na... so, goodluck sa 3 hours na sleep. wah! merci!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

a letter to someone who is destined to wipe away my tears.

i know this is sudden. i know this is stupid. but here i am, about to bring stupidity to the next level.

how are you? are you okay? have you been eating well? coz i sure wouldn't want you to starve to death and not be able to meet you.

anyhoo, today has been an effing sad day for me. (hey, it's okay for me to use swear words, right? It's not like you're 12 or something.) well, back to the sad day. I was with someone. For 16 years, I have been with someone. And today is the first time that I have ever convinced myself that it should never have started in the first place.

No, don't get me wrong. I don't have regrets. I only have tears to shed, and hopes to find. And in time, I know I will be well. In time, I will meet you, and I am hoping that you are different. That you can love and be loved in return. That with you, my tears will not drown me. That your arms will comfort me. That we'll have fun pictures together, and we'll hold hands while watching the sun set. That we'll grow old and never look back. You, me, and my kids, and maybe yours, as well, if you have some.

Sure, we can fight some time. We can hurt each other with words, with indifference. But we are not going to finish the day without saying we are sorry. Yes, we. Not you, nor I. We. Because for a relationship to work, two should become one and be separate at the same time.

Yes, there will also be times that we will feel the need to end things... to start anew... and find someone else. But this I am sure, I will also never regret finding you. For you have wiped my tears away and didn't flinch at the sight of my weaknesses.

Would you like to know me? I am Rachelle. I'm 5'4", weighs a hundred and twenty. I'm an aries and I like to read. I am not sexy, or fair, or tanned. I don't even have big boobs or long legs. I like taking pictures, mostly of myself. I have a handful of words stashed in my brain, and zero recipes to cook. I can do the laundry when I have to, but I hate it when I have to clean the bathroom.

I dream in pictures, and I sometimes dream of you, though you're face is not clear. I haven't dreamed in monochrome, and for that I am thankful. Coz I believe that the world is best viewed in color.

If you liked what you've read, come find me. Look for me. Relieve me from my misery.

And to make it easier for you to find me, close your eyes and dream of me. That's where we'll find each other. In a world with no boundaries, no pretentions, no judgments, and no fears.

And as I've said before, bring coffee, okay?

just ask me.

and i won't say no.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Monday, December 10, 2007

confessions of a Starbucks junkie.

i like coffee. i like it in the morning. i like it at night. i rarely like it in between. so, instead of hot coffee, i take fraps.

but with all the poor children in the streets... all the beggars asking for pennies... the rising expenses for my medicines... gasoline... food... bills... i can't find it in myself to go inside Starbucks everytime I see one. Ergo, in all the years that they offered the planner, I have had it only once. And it is when Ronald helped me fill up my card by having their office meeting there. 13 stickers all at once. Hooray for me.

But yesterday, I went to SM Manila to buy something, coz I couldn't find it in Makati, and there was Starbucks. Ooh.

Inner Self: control yourself, coffee freak.

I went to National, SM, and all the different stores there, and purchased my items. And when I was on my way home, there it was again. Starbucks was calling me in. Making me drool.

One step closer. Two. Yes, sometimes, I have no self-control.

"tall toffee nut latte frap, please."

If I had one wish...

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end,
It would just begin.
If I had one wish, you would be my boo,
Promise to love you,
Trust me I'll trust you.

Friday, December 07, 2007

the quest for a planner

yes. a planner. a simple diary for everyday notes. 2008 na kasi eh.

Starbucks? Pwede. Kaso lang, magastos. 24 drinks. Ngayon, kung may mabait na magbibigay... *hehehe*

Belle de Jour? Pwede. Kaso lang, masyadong girlie.

National Bookstore generic? Mura nga, kaso lang... Kakasawa eh. Too impersonal.

Ergo, I made one for myself via Pagemaker. Simple. Clean. In white bond paper. In spanish, mind. With spanish idioms. I uploaded a couple of nice fonts to use. And it turned out okay. Now, I just need to have it binded somewhere.

It's clean now. Let's wait til I get to use it. *haha*

(may picture sana to... kaso lang, nagloloko ang panglipat ko ng picture: Micro SD card from my cel, read via my mp3 player with Micro SD slot) Kaya, imaginin niyo na lang hitsura ng malinis kong planner.

Paid trip to Vigan, anyone?

A call for volunteers and donors!

Type mo bang mag-volunteer for special children? O baka naman type ito ng kapatid, pinsan o kaibigan mo. Open din ito sa mga professionals na may ORAS sa ganitong mga gawain.
Puwede rin ito bilang seminar para sa mga mga guro sa regular at special schools, social workers, PT/OT, nurses, parents at sino mang nagnanais ng kasanayan sa paghawak at pag-aaruga sa mga batang kapansanan.
Join na kayo sa orientation at training on January 27, till April 6, 2008 (tuwing Sunday lang) 8:00 - 6:00 Eulogio Rodriguez Elementary School, Cavo Sanchez Street, Hagdang Bato Itaas, Mandaluyong City (Shaw Boulevard through Bonifacio Street, ang landmark ay 7-11 sa Shaw malapit sa Jollibee Acacia Lane).

From Boni Avenue (EDSA), take jeep with a Gabby's signboard and baba 7-11 pagkatapos ng San Felipe Nery Church, then take tricycle to Cavo Sanchez (mismong school na). From Crossing EDSA naman, take Quiapo jeep, baba na sa Bonifacio Street (landmark 7-11 pagkatapos ng Jollibee Acacia Lane.

Ang training/orientation na ito ay para sa mga gustong makasama sa Gabayan 2008 sa Vigan, Ilocos Sur sa April 11-20, 2008 o para sa sinuman na ang interest lang ay mahasa ang kasanayan sa pag-hawak at pag-aaruga sa mga batang may kapansanan. Ang Gabayan ay isang summer camp para sa mga batang may espesyal na pangangailangan. Puwede ninyong ipasa ang impormasyong ito sa mga taong inaakala ninyong interesado o di naman kaya, i-print mo pati attachment at i-post sa bulletin board ninyo.
Punta kayo sa lugar na nabanggit at hanapin lang si Kuya Jherrie, Kuya Riki, Ate Virna, Kuya Doc, Ate Sheen, Ate Elaine at Kuya Archie.

Kung di naman kayo available, baka puwede naman kayong magdonate ng cash para pamasahe at pagkain ng mga bata. O di naman kaya, ay mga pagkain tulad ng bigas at ulam na makakatulong ng malaki sa araw-araw na pangangailangan ng mga bata at mga volunteer na makakasama. Kung may sasakyan naman kayong puwedeng ipahiram e di lalong mas magaling. O baka type naman ninyong magbigay ng kahit anong regalo para sa mga bata.

Interesado na ba kayo? Makipag-ugnayan kay Kuya Jherrie (0917-8437758) o kaya kay Kuya Jonjon 561-2617 c/o AMOPDM para sa mga sagot sa mga katanungan ninyo o sa ilan pang mga detalye. Puwedi rin kayong mag-email sa o Please see attachments for details.

Aasahan po namin kayo.


2007 PNVSCA Outstanding Volunteer Organization

Thursday, December 06, 2007

i'm not destruction...

i was chatting with a friend yesterday, and he went all mushy and told me how magnificent i was i touch the lives of other people...

that i am a light.

dyaran! thus, the title.

pwede na kong tumayo ng maganda and exlaim:

"Max... I am light!"

(para sa mga di alam ang pinagsasasabi ko, maghanap kayo ng pirated DVD ng Sharkboy at Lavagirl)

Weniwei... di ko alam kung makikipagkulitan ako sa kanya, and tell him NGE! MAGTIGIL KA!

Sabi nga ni Jef, di daw ako marunong tumanggap ng compliment. Siguro nga. Kaya di ko na kinontest. Sige na nga, kumbaga. Tutal nanay na ko. 'Ilaw' ng tahanan. As if.

Marami ba akong na-touch? Di nga... pag iniisip ko naman, parang ang babaw naman ng lahat eh. Parang feeling ko, moral obligation ko lang naman ang makinig sa mga tao pag gusto nilang magkwento... ang mag-offer ng nalalaman... ang magmahal ng mga taong naiiba... ang magmahal sa mga batang may kapansanan... ang magsakripisyo para sa mga anak... ang magpatawad ng asawang nagkasala... ang makipagkaibigan... ang magsulat minsan ng mga nakakaantig ng damdamin... hindi ba?

So, ano'ng kakaiba sa mga ginagawa ko, eh nagagawa niyo rin yun, sigurado ako. Maybe without you knowing.

Yun lang naman. Yun lang ang opinyon ko. Nothing special with what I have done. And what I have been doing. I just love easily. I forgive easily.

Siguro isa lang ang aaminin ko na sinasabi ng lahat na meron ako. Meron akong LOVE. A big heart to hold everything and everybody in. No, not strength. For I am not strong. I have my own weaknesses. I have my moments. I died several times, but I came back again. Lived again. and again. and again.

Sabi nga nila, ang tibay ko. Kung sila daw ako, wala na... nagpakamatay na sila. Well, it is no secret that I have had suicidal tendencies. That I have thought and felt death wandering in the shadows... but I do not fear the dark...

For I have the gift of sight. of finding the good in the bad. after the bad have ruined my life's puzzle, I find the missing pieces, still jumbled up somewhere in my heart.

So, if I have touched your lives, no gratitude is needed. I do not wish to hear praise or receive gifts. This is who I am. It is in my nature. This is me.

I am Lavagirl.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

i'm not weird. i'm just different sometimes.

gaya-gaya ako kay Ian.

nothing really weird. just that when i'm watching a movie alone, and I have a burger (chicken) and fries... I put my fries inside my burger before I eat it. I rarely do it when I'm with friends coz they might think I'm weird. Is that weird? =)

I collect turtles. But, if it's floating in the ditch, I'm sorry, if I don't have anything to catch it with (if it's alive), then I'd let it drown. Poor thing. I only have one live turtle. Others are stuffed, others are jewelry pieces.

Yes, I can't swim. Literally. I'm claustrophobic. I'm afraid of sharks. Of jellyfish. I like looking at the sea, though.

I've driven a car twice. No, I don't have a license. Do not wonder why.

I've been decorating our Xmas tree for as long as I can remember.

I have not worn proper shoes for super long. Always sandals and flip-flops.

Malamigin ako. Simula ngayong tag-lamig, I cannot watch a movie without a jacket on. My teeth will chatter.

The farthest place I've been from home was Cebu.

I believe that Amici de Don Bosco's chocolate with nuts gelatto and Pasta Montanara are like drugs. They're addictive. Like laced brownies. *jajaja*

I hate pills. All of them. Coz I have to take them.

Kinalbo ako nung bata ako. My mom was razor-happy in the late 70's. Or whoever did shave my head.

I did not study really well coz I'm tamad. Ask anyone. Major tamad. So, all the medals were products of genes, not hard work.

Since I'm tamad, I rarely clean my room. But when I do, it's like I renovated.

I learned to eat Kare-kare because of Ronald.

I eat pancit, but not the laman. Noodles lang. Ronald eats them for me. There are a lot of things that I don't eat, that he does. So there. Just imagine what we're like when we're together sa handaan.

I hate super loud music, yung walang sense yung lyrics, at puro sigaw.

Pag nagustuhan ko yung kanta, I play that over and over hanggang magsawa tenga ko.

Pangit ako pag gising. Super pangit ako pag tulog. I snore when I'm tired, too. I even talk. I don't walk though. Unlike Anea who sleepwalked once.

I have Ian for a friend. Major weird, huh? *jajajaja* Peace tayo! Text mo ko for Amici.

Saturday, December 01, 2007

you can stand under my umbrella

dedicated to someone who made my burdens easier to bear...
you know who you are.


You had my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
Maybe in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the Dark
You can see shiny Cars
That's when you need me there
With you I'll always share

When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella eh eh)

These fancy things
Will never come in between
You're my entity
Here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard
Together we'll mend your heart

When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella

You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella

You can run into my Arms
That's okay don't be alarmed
(Come into Me)
(There's no distance in between our love)
Gonna let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more ooohh

When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)

It's raining
Ooo baby it's raining (raining)
Baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining
Ooo baby it's raining
Come into me
Come into me

Thursday, November 29, 2007

bakit mapanghi sa Pinas?

Ang hipag ko nagtitinda ngayon sa labas ng Ospital ng Maynila. Nagkaron sila ng parang tiangge, to cover their Christmas party celebration. Ang bayad is 200 bucks lang a day.

So, since may balak akong magbusiness next year dito sa bagong mall namin sa Pasay (next year pa siya magagawa), I decided to go there and make bantay din. I learned how to put up all the stuff, how to take it down, what the market there wants... ganun.

Masaya siya, lalo na pag may nabili na. I went home din around lunch. I went back around 4, with Tony, to see nga how it would close. Eh si Tony, nawiwiwi... Ngek! Akyat kami sa hospital. Ang mamang gard, tinanong kami, san daw kami... sabi ko baka po pwedeng maki-CR lang kasi nawiwiwi na yung bata.

At ang sagot ng mamang gard?

"Dyan sa labas! Paihiin mo dyan!"


"Oo! Dyan o... maghanap ka ng butas dyan sa gilid... o kaya dyan lang sa baba... paihiin mo... sus."

gusto ko siyang sakalin. gusto kong sabihing... "at kung tatae po ba, sa baba na rin patataihin?!" sampal ko sayo tong bag ko eh.

hay... kung wala ka lang baril.

Thank God for Caltex.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007


¡Fuimos sorprendidos hoy porque teníamos
dos examinaciones! ¡Dos veses! ¡Dos! *huhuhuhu*

Era afortunado yo pasé la prueba en uno. Cuarenta y seis sobre de sesenta. *whew* Todavía no sé con el otro. Sabré el jueves.

Ahora nos preocupamos de la prueba de diciembre el 11. ¡Tengo que estudiar siempre! *hay....*

¡Qué rollo!

Sunday, November 25, 2007

why daughters get in trouble with their mothers...

papunta kami ng Waltermart kahapon, at bago pumasok, sabi ko kay Anea:

"Anak, this might be the most important lesson a mother can give to her child--do not enter in the door marked as EXIT, and do not go out of the door marked ENTRANCE. Wag kang gagaya sa Lola mo, para may smooth flow sa Pilipinas."

nung papasok kami ng supermarket and we have to leave our baggages in the baggage counter, I was looking somewhere else while falling in line, so, I wasn't paying attention, thus:

"Mommy, this might be the most important lesson a daughter can give to a mother--do not leave your baggages in the CLAIM section..."

my killer stare made her stop talking.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

historias a decir

almost a week of being silent... =)

no me siento bien. tenía gripe... tengo una tos terrible!

yan na yung short story.

kasi it was a busy week... tapos lagi pang naulan sa hapon... malamig pa sa Waltermart, ang aming bagong tambayan ng nanay ko. We found out na yung sinehan sa Waltermart ay parang mas ok pa sa Glorietta. Napanood na namin ang The Game Plan, Beowulf, and One More Chance (yes, and it's my mom's choice, not mine) dun... Medyo complete na rin naman dun... may Robinson's, Jollibee, Starbucks...

I also attended the orientation/seminar for the volunteer thing in Don Bosco with my niece, Aileen. 1-7pm yun, and it was very informative. We learned a lot. There were different areas to choose from--Adult services, food, raffle, registration, clowns... but, we chose to be Caregivers on December 2. Actually, I wanted to be in the easier areas, but my niece wanted to be a Caregiver, for her to really experience it daw. Exciting! I just hope the kids that will be assigned to us will not be any trouble than what I go through with Dale everyday. and if caregiving proves to be difficult, then we'll go to different areas next year. that is, if I can do it again next year. *hahaha*

If you are serious with volunteering, there is a program for it, you will be trained for 10 Sundays, then your culminating activity is an all-expenses paid trip to Vigan in April to be a caregiver as well, for their Summer Camp. And hindi siya basta-basta ha... ang tindi ng selection process nila. As in.

anyway, back to being sick... the last straw, i guess, was when Ronald picked us up last Sunday from Harrison... Mom, Anea, and I were there to do some shopping for school supplies, and while Mom was in the Chapel to hear Mass, Anea and I decided to try out Goldilock's Decorate a cake promo. It costs 50 bucks only, with the following items:

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and this is how my cake turned out:

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yes, it was lopsided. and it wouldn't pass Heny Sison's standards, but at least it's still pretty. *hehe*

anea's turned out okay (okay, it didn't! mana siya sa dad niya... haha.), she made her icing pink! which i didn't think of. i wasn't able to take a picture of it, though. i'd love to do that again some time.

entonces, we did some shopping again after (no, we are not rich or people who shops coz we're bored... we just need to restock some necessities)... i was pagod, and then super lamig sa car (#1 lang yun)... i woke up at 2AM shivering already. nilalagnat na ko.

i wasn't supposed to go to class today, kaso lang i thought i'm gonna be absent na on Thursday coz we have a conference with Dale's teachers that day. pero naalala ko, my class is now in the morning! hah! i forgot.. dati kasi hapon ang class ko and hapon din ang conference. so, i guess i can come to class pa rin, but i have to go directly to Dale's school after.

bueno, i was in class today... my prof was like "oh... pobresita....
¿tomó vitamina C?"

i'm beginning to wonder if my pipes are starting to bleed already, coz it hurts a lot... as in... hirap magsalita... ¡qué terrible!

yes, i'm taking in vitamin C--all natural. tons of Dalandan juice and eating lots of Ponkan. coz i hate pills! i've been taking pills ever since i can remember. everyone here is also coughing badly, already. at least Tony's nose is not bleeding anymore. it did, twice, kasi. buti na lang ako lang yung nilagnat... sila kasi ubo at sipon lang.

what bums me is that the PC is busted! again. hah! kainis. kasi it means that they are gonna use my laptop. eh takot ko nga kanina coz when i turned it on, tumunog pa... kala ko kung ano na... at ayaw pang mag-charge! kinabahan talaga ako... i tried it on a different socket, nagcharge naman siya. hm... ano naman kayang sumpong meron to.

what's nice naman is that I got my kid's report cards already... and the surprise was Tony's. From last quarter's Top 10 slot, he's now in Top 3.

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ang laki ng tinaas niya, huh! Siya din ang Outstanding student sa Filipino. It wasn't enough to earn him a place in the honor roll, but it's enough for us. To think that we thought he'll have a hard time coz he doesn't know how to read yet when he enrolled.

Anea, is still Top 1. She went up from being 5th Honor, to 4th. Pareho sila ng bestfriend niyang si Jude. Kasama na siya sa Excellence Exam for honors next quarter. At least she'll have a place in the roll when she graduates from Elementary. We are hoping that she goes up pa rin.. mataas akong mangarap eh. *haha*

Sad was Dale's. Hay... first time niyang magkaron ng 77. Both in Filipino and Sibika. Syempre naman... Tagalog subjects. He hates it daw. All of his grades bumaba coz of his tantrums the past few weeks. Hindi siya nagsusulat, nakikinig... Kanina when we were studying for his long test this quarter, hindi niya talaga naiintindihan mga sinasabi ko in Tagalog. Hindi ko tuloy siya masisi bakit puro pasang awa mga exams niya sa Tagalog subjects niya. So, kanina, i was translating everything we were reading. I was also correcting his pronunciation and intonation. He was reading Tagalog words kasi like in English eh... he's super slang. I just wish that he does better this quarter.

well, then.... stories are done... i have to go back to sleep now... Grrr! i can't talk! ouch!

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Tony Chronicles part 3

Field trip ng Grade 1 San Isidro students, at kasama siyempre ang aking anak na si Anton. Well, well, well... good luck, di ba?

Mabait naman siya during the trip since kinausap ko siya before we went na hindi niya ako pwedeng pagurin coz alam naman niya na sick ako at madali akong mapagod lalo na kung hahabulin ko siya.

First stop was Avilon Zoo. It was nice coz there were a lot of animals na hindi mo na makikita talaga sa Manila Zoo. The problem lang was that my darn batteries won't work na naman... i charged them full naman last night... so, ayun! fonecam. when we got to a souvenir shop, i bought na lang batteries for 50 each. Kainis din coz tour ito, and we couldn't stay long in a certain place. We had to keep moving, so, ang kinalabasan.. bad pictures! Di bale na... importante naman is Anton had fun. I texted my mom pa nga pala:

Ako: Kainis! Chinarge ko naman yung batt kagabi, ayaw na naman umandar nung cam!

Mama: Tapon na yan! Bili na lang tayong bagong tig-1M.

Ako: Oo nga eh. Sabi ko sayo bilhin na natin yung Lumix na tig-30k sa Anson's eh.

Mama: Utot!

Ayus, noh?! Gusto tig-isang milyon, ayaw ng tig-30k lang. Alam na natin kung kanino nagmana si Anton.

Well, after ng Avilon, punta kaming 9 Waves. (After that, sa isang pagawaan ng sapatos sa Marikina.) On the way sa 9 Waves, pansin ko parang tutuka-tuka na ulo ni Anton.

Ako: Tulog ka muna.

Anton: Yoko. (yawn)

Ako: Sige na. Malayo pa naman ata eh. Tulog ka muna.

Anton: Di naman ako inaantok eh. (tuka)

Ako: Ano'ng hindi, eh nabagsak na ulo mo dyan.

Anton: Hindi nga. (tingin sa labas. maya-maya, tuka)

Ako: (buntong hininga) Hay nako... tigas ng ulo... sige.. bahala ka na nga.



Friday, November 09, 2007

hay, Anton...

Tony was checking out my wallet kanina... inside were a set of pictures. the first one had a cut-out of Anea's ID when she was in Prep. Under her picture, there was an indication.

Tony: "Dep? Ano'ng Dep? Sa SPED si Anea, Ma?"

Ako: "Ha?! Baket?"

Tony: "Oo. Sa SPED ang Dep di ba?"

Ako: "Yung iba, oo. Pero si Ate, hinde."

Tony: "Eh bakit nakalagay dito sa ID niya, Dep siya."

Ako: "Asan? Patingin nga!"

ID: Elementary Dept.

Ako: (hagalpak ng tawa) "Ah! Dept! Department yan anak, pinaikli lang."

Tony: "Ah... akala ko naman bingi siya."


Lipat naman siya ng picture... natapat sa picture ko at sa kabila nito, picture ulit ni Anea.

Tony: "Ano ba to... Di to mananalo sa Ms. Beautiful Philippines."

Ako: "Ano?! Sino ha?!"

Tony: "Wala..."

Ako: "Sino nga?!"

Tony: (tawa ng tawa) "Wala nga..."

Ako: "Isa..."

Tony: (tawa ulit) "Sige na nga... si Anea na nga."

Double toink!

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

of nightmares and coffee (a repost)

Today, right at this moment, I'm looking at my son, Dale, sleeping soundly in my bed. In his hand was a plastic toy flower. My mom gave it to him when he had a tantrum. He wanted to buy something from the store, but sadly, the stores were closed. So, in between sobs, he slept, flower in hand.

My mom went to sleep right after. She was exhausted. Oftentimes, dealing with Dale's tantrums can be physically draining, not to mention, emotionally tiring. Mom couldn't stand it when Dale does something unusual, like look up at the ceiling and shake his head, or giggle for no apparent reason.

When I look at him like this, peacefully sleeping, I try to visualize what his dreams may be like. Does he dream at all? Does he have nightmares like we all do? If he does, what is it that he fears the most?

I wish he could tell me when he wakes up. I wish he can wake up in the middle of the night and cry and when I ask him he'll tell me, "Mamaw!", just like his brother, Anton. But there were never moments like these.

But I'm still thankful and happy, for when he's awake he can now tell me what he wants... he points, and he whispers them to me. He looks for me now when I'm not in the room, shouting "Mommy!" while going to every room.

Two days ago, he woke up at 4:30 in the morning, he tugged at my hand, and I, thinking that he had a nightmare, told him "Ssh... what is it?", and he told me...


And then I looked at my son in the dark. I thought, I was wrong. I have to be thankful if he doesn't have nightmares.

You know what my nightmares are?

They're moments that Dale wakes up in the dark, just sitting beside me, staring at me, and not telling me what he wanted because he did not know how...

And they're moments when Dale wakes up in the middle of the night asking for coffee, but couldn't find me in the dark.

I was cleaning my files, and I saw this piece at the back of some of my papers... I'm not sure when I wrote this, years ago, i think.

I still have the same nightmares now and again.

Sunday, November 04, 2007


sometimes, there are people you meet that makes you feel complete. But, there are moments when you feel like you have to leave him be. for his sake. and for yours, as well. More often than not, you don't need to tell him why.

I have known him for a few years, but I felt the need to part ways. And this time, he knows why.

It has been a few months now since we last talked. and i know, he respected my decision. and i thank him for that.

October came and then the La Naval. I kept on thinking, someone's having a birthday that day, but I couldn't point out who. Then I got to check my email, and there it was. A notification for his birthday.

I sent him an email to greet him a belated one. After a few days, he replied with this:

"thanks so much. miss na kita!"

i felt a tug. how sad. missing someone. but at least he didn't say "miss na kita...", coz it would've made me cry. You know how punctuations alter the meaning of sentences.

I answered back.


Days after, I kinda forgot about it already. But alas, he sent me a forwarded text message yesterday at 3 in the morning. The weird thing was, I already deleted his number from my fone. I was sure of it. I checked it again after, and it isn't there. But his name popped up. I guess my SIM still has it.

"Sometimes, we just have to let go of someone who matters to us not because we want to, but because we have to, because it's the right thing to do... Let us remember that we can't force anyone to love us.. We can't beg someone to stay when he/she wants to leave and be with someone else... This is what love is all about... However, the end of love is not the end of life... It should be the beginning of understanding that love leaves for a reason, but leaves with a lesson."

I texted him back. I greeted him a Happy Halloween and wishes God to bless him.

He replied during the night with one word.


that's when i cried. not when he said he misses me, not when he sent the mushy text, but when he texted with finality....

a word that would not need a reply.

a word that feels like a goodbye.

That time I decided to leave him, I thought, I was robbed of a beautiful friendship. I was robbed by circumstances beyond my control. But the truth is, I am sure that our friendship will remain, even without the words.

And if he gets to read this, I'm sure there's just one word he'll say.

Tony really scares me...

halloween scare of the year:

(placed all my hair in front of my face)

Ako: buwahahahaha! anjan na ko....

Tony: (running) Wah!!! hah!!! hah!!! SUDOKU... SUDOKU!!!!


photo courtesy.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

no estoy asustado

my mom and i saw one of our neighbors today. her son just got out of the hospital. he was also sick. he has almost the same disease as i do. almost at the same time. he is also 32. he underwent dialysis already.

his mom's eyes got so wide when she saw me, and this is what she said to me:

"hindi ka pa dinadialysis? ok ka pa?"

i smile and nod.

his son wasn't as lucky as me. he was placed an access on his neck. on the other hand, i am already prepared for it. i have a fistula on my right arm. as soon as my doctor told me, i went in for surgery last year.

it was obvious that they were unprepared for what have happened. but, it was lucky that they have sufficient means for a transplant since they own a bakery in our street. so, they are now preparing for that.

yes, i have thought of transplantation. but, i am hoping that if that time comes, all of us are prepared as well.

i am still praying that i will get well... that a bigger miracle will be bestowed... i can't complain, since being dialysis-free for one more year is a big miracle already.

still, i cannot say that i am a hundred percent okay. i get scared sometimes. in fact, i am now. of a lot of things.

but, if there's one thing that i am not afraid of, it is being alone.

the picture above? not gonna be me.

for one, i'm afraid of the sea. and two, nobody in my family will let me wade out there alone.

Friday, October 26, 2007

si Anea at si GMA

kagabi habang nanonood kami ng TV, syempre nakain din kami, binalita ang paglaya ni Erap. Pagkatapos noon ay ang sinabi ni FVR na:

Announcer: "...di na magtatagal ang pamamahala ni GMA."

Anea: (di tumitigil sa pagkain) "yey."

hindi po "Yehey!!!", kundi "yey."

malamyang sagot para sa malamyang pamahalaan.

The youth knows best, I guess.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

heartbreaking... Glorietta blast story

i just wish this does not happen again anymore. It was a nightmare. That day I was in class at Cervantes, everybody's fone rang almost at the same time, text messages and calls from family and friends informing us of what happened... and all I could think of was if my mom went to Glorietta earlier than expected. We were supposed to go there after my class, to buy gifts for my niece. Thank God she texted me right away.

i kept on thinking.. what if it happened on a Saturday, when me and my kids are almost always there, buying Pokemon statues from the Gift Factory, or looking at stationeries at the Papemelroti, or buying fraps (Tony and Anea's fave) from Starbucks, or buying CDs from CDR King, or just going to the comfort rooms beside YRYS? I shuddered at those thoughts.

May God bless the families of the casualties... may they find it in themselves to see the good with the bad... may we all see that every day is worth living like it was our last... so, tell your loved ones how you feel... spend quality time with them... change for the better... forgive the ones who hurt you... ask for forgiveness from the ones you hurt... break up with your sadistic boyfriend... stop beating your wife... stop stealing, cheating, and being jealous... make a difference... dance... laugh... cry... make everything count.

Today might be our last on earth. I just wish that heaven is what we all expect it to be--no gas explosions or bombs. Just better than this.


Good day everyone,

I wish I were writing under different circumstances.

I would like to inform you that my wife Leslie Cruz
was part of the casualties in the Glorietta 2 Mall
bombing in Makati City , Philippines . She was supposed
to have a minor out patient surgery at Makati Medical
Center at 230pm.

I had taken a leave from work to accompany her there.
We dropped off our daughter, Amber, at my parents
place in QC to babysit at around 10am. We then
proceeded to Makati and was there at 1230pm. Since she
had been fasting in preparation for her procedure, she
wanted to move around and listen to some music while I
grabbed a bite to eat. We parked at the basement of
Park Square 2, and headed for the Glorietta 2
entrance. We parted at the top of the escalator, she
turned right towards Filbar's while I went left
towards the restaurants. That was the last time I
would see her.

Around 120pm, she had called me so that we can meet at
the Glorietta 2 exit just in time to make her
appointment. As I made my way there from Glorietta 1
through the connecting hallways, and was about to turn
the corner, I heard 2 deep thumps and the shock-wave
from the blast hit me. At that moment my heart dropped
as I knew that the origin of the blast came from the
same place where we were supposed to meet. I tried
getting to where my wife was, but the dust was too
much and it was as if I was staring at a white wall.

I still tried to convince myself that she was able to
make it out, and that after ringing her mobile without
a response only meant that she dropped it in the
confusion. After 6 hours of searching from Makati Med.
to Ospital ng Makati , the blast site, and back again
to MMC - with the help of all the people I could get
hold of, that I was able to get confirmation in what
the state of my wife was.

My Dad and Uncle signaled me in from the ER of MMC. My
Uncle (who's a doctor) asked me to describe Leslie's
appearance to another group of doctors. I saw in the
eyes of one that the description made sense. Instead
of confirming it to me, they huddled together, then
brought me to a small examination room. It was only
through a digital camera that I was able to confirm
(and deny) that she was indeed gone.

I have so many regrets. I should have met her sooner.
I should have ran instead of a brisk walk. I should
have not chose to park where I did. I should have
braved the dust and went in the blast site. I should
have ...

Today's the 4th day. It is still terribly difficult to
breathe, let alone wake up realizing that your source
of strength, your best friend doesn't lie beside you
on your bed. That my deepest worry is when Amber
starts asking for her Mama.

I am glad that Amber's too young to understand the
loss and pain. In time I would like to tell her the
details of how her mother died, but more importantly I
would like to raise her as how her mother lived - a
loving person, strong willed, decisive, caring, and
nurturing. She has always cared for her family and
friends, and sacrfied her career for being a full time
mom and home maker.

As with all couples we had our ups and downs - none of
which I regret not going through. The sweet is never
as sweet without the sour. For almost 4 years of
marriage, we've finally hit our balance in life only
to be taken away in an instant. I have no regrets
about our marriage. She has loved me and Amber beyond
her capacity. I will always love her.

It is my first time to write to egroup as I've lurked
and watched emails being sent to and fro. All I want
now is that for each of the couples here is to cherish
each moment that we spend with our loved ones. Pretty
simple to say, very easy to take for granted.

Thank you all for the prayers. I would still like to
ask you to please include Leslie in them until her
40th day so that the path to God's kingdom is well lit
and she is no longer in the dark.


Carlo Cruz

Thursday, October 18, 2007


(assignment namin to for today... hay... nosebleed... sana tama, pero parang ang dami kong maling grammar. oh well.)

Me gustan fiestas celebrabas de niño/a. Por ejemplo, el cumpleaños, el Dia de San Valentin, el Dia de la Madre, el Dia del Padre, la primera comunion, el Dia de los Santos, el Dia de los Muertos, la pascua, la Navidad, y Año Nuevo.

Todas fiestas celebrabas con regalos, sorpresa, viaje, flores, dulces, comida especial, familia, y amigos.

En mi familia, celebramos el cumpleaños todo dia. A veces, vamos en un viaje, y celebramos el cumpleaños en varios lugares, para nadar. Pero, típicamente, empiezando con visita de iglesia para acción de gracias. Después, comemos la comida especial en mi casa. Por ejemplo, espagueti--para la vida larga, el pollo frito, cerdo asado, helado de chocolate, torta del mocha, y vario alimento filipino.

Cantamos “¡feliz cumpleaños!” en voces todas ruidosas. Abrimos los regalos de la familia y de amigos.

Después, vamos al centro comercial para miramos una película, o compramos varias cosas, y comemos otra vez en una restaurante. Cuando somos todos cansados, vamos detrás a casa, y comemos otra vez.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

dausdos no more

years after, i decided to change my blog address. and when i checked now, Dausdos is now some pilates website. Que horror!!! =)

santuariodemicorazon is more meaningful for me... my life in a nutshell... my hopes and dreams.. my life and death... my tears and laughters... my heart's sanctuary, indeed.

=================== and to rant for a while...

i have been a blogger for years now... i don't make money out of it like some people do. yes, i comment to posts... saying things like i've been there, done that. and i've learned that it wasn't true. i might have crossed the same path, but i never was there.

over the years, i learned that there are posts that i shouldn't comment on, except when i was personally invited to view it, or if i thought that my experience could help.

but still, there are still some people who's born to make other people's life a mockery. and i have met another one of them on this blog.

i know that there are people who can relate to some of my posts. thinking that they 'know' what i am talking about and what i'm feeling. let me enlighten you--nobody but me, really does.

you can tell me things. you can try to convince me. but you won't succeed. because your problems? they might have been greater than mine. but, i really doubt it. and i am not about to tell you why. let's just say, i am still happy that i am not you. coz you are the weakest person i have ever came across with.

my pain is not yours. my joy is not yours. you will never know.

don't tell me that you went through the same thing. you haven't. even twins do not have the same emotions at the same time.

you cannot judge me for what you have read here or there. you cannot tell me that i was a no-good friend. you were not there.

you can comment all you want, tell me your own sob story, but you cannot judge me. Nobody should. This is my blog. even if this is public, you should respect it. if you have things on your mind, if you feel like your story is worth-telling, go make yourself a blog! Rant all you want. Criticize me all you want. It's gonna be your blog, and i won't care. That's one of the reason's why i have a blog... aside from the fact that it helps me and it heals me... i wanna have an avenue to say things that's on my mind. so, why are there people who doesn't have a blog, but who comments like they own mine?

As far as I know, you're just some crazy old hag who doesn't know what to do with her life. you said you're happy now? asus! you're still bitter! read your comments! bitterness all over! you're not happy! you're campaigning against other women's happiness.

tanga man kami, we admit that we're still humane. that we still honor our commitment of 'for better or for worse'. it's not like our ex-husbands raped our daughters or fucked with the maid. maybe yours did. we don't know! and we don't care! we're not friends anyway. as for me, you're just a lonely fucked-up woman who's so sick and tired of being husband-less that you want everyone else to be like you. (pity)

and before anyone else comments, think level-headedly. 'mum' is the word.

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Sunday, October 07, 2007

somebody get me a genie!

yes, i am salivating green with envy to those who have the MotoROKR E6. Wah!!! very nice to use with this. hay... one more for my wishlist. Engeng 17k!

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Desperate ABC

Dear Friends,

I have just read and signed the online petition:

"Filipino Americans demand for apology from ABC and Desperate Housewives"

hosted on the web by, the free online petition
service, at:

I personally agree with what this petition says, and I think you might
agree, too. If you can spare a moment, please take a look, and consider
signing yourself.

Best wishes,


Nick Vujicic

i just wanted to share this with you. made me cry buckets.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

perdí a amigos hoy

Super word for word translation. =)

Yes, I lost friends today. People I thought were real... Those I thought truly cared. Those who do not speak ill of me. Those who do not blatantly lie to my face.

Yes, I lost friends today. But I am sure I will find many more. Not to replace the ones I lost, but to comfort me through all the pain... to see that life is still worth living... and that there are true people worth trusting.

Yes, I lost friends today. But I found my family. I found my mom. I found myself.

Tomorrow is a brighter day. A promise of truth and leaving behind all the lies.


Yipee! I passed an exam to become America's Next Top Model a business transcriptionist trainee. The training will be on Monday, for 13 days. If I pass, I go directly to work for a transcription company where we will transcribe voicemail messages. Like a call center, without all the talking. A dream come true for some. Haha.

Anyway, before I left, the manager of the school told me that I had the highest score for all the tests. Galing ko di ba?! Joke!

So, this means that Nivel 3 might be my last. =( But I wish I can continue studying Spanish in the future... but for now, I have to prioritize this one. I don't wanna waste an opportunity. =)

Monday, October 01, 2007

On Blog Leave

just like the 'sign' says, i'm gonna take a break from this blog for a while.
as for some people who knows me, i don't need to explain why...
as for those who don't, this is my way of saying
'things are happening in my life that i don't wanna talk or write about'.

no, i'm not sad. nor am i glad.

i just had a light bulb suddenly lighting up over my head... and my heart followed the light.

Lesson Learned: your Mom is more often than not, RIGHT.

and don't worry, i'm gonna ramble about soon enough.

Friday, September 28, 2007

super funny Jim Carrey

the better woman

(this was a comment i made to a blog... it's worth posting as a blog entry, i suppose)

hm... in a supposed love triangle, there will always be 3 sides to a story. his, yours, and hers. you said you trust him... that's good, then. yun ang anggulo mo.

maraming angles ang pwede.... sabi nga ng bf mo, she likes him... so maybe, gumagawa lang ng away yung girl.

yung isang angle, pwede namang nagsisinungaling yung guy at sila nga nung girl.

kahit san mo ilugar, magulo yung situation... if you really trust your bf, then, you should stop checking his friendster account na lang altogether... para wala kang nalalaman or nababasa. and besides, the message was obviously not for you.

saying this based on experience.

sa totoo lang, mas gusto ko na lang that i don't know everything, para di ako nasasaktan. Coz if i really love the guy, kahit masaktan ako, i'll give him another chance... so why bother getting hurt?

kung mahal ka naman nung guy, kahit na ilang babae pa ang makilala niyan, ikaw pa rin ang gagawin niyang gf. ikaw ang kanin at ulam, silang mga kabit--dessert. oo nga, masarap ang dessert, pero hindi naman nabubuhay ang tao sa dessert lang eh. nakakasawa yun. and men will always be men... they'll flirt, they'll hurt you... in the end, they always choose the better woman.

so, be that woman. =)


today was my first day with Nivel 3 and Erick Manorca (Pinoy)... Dapat si Lola prof namin, pero hindi eh... ok lang... it was fun... namangha ako sa kanya and i envy him... Ian, naging prof mo ba siya? anyway, we played a game... verb conjugations... syempre nalito na naman ako. pero ok lang, di naman namamahiya si Erick eh. At wala na naman si Eng-Eng dun to make me feel like a lesser person. *huhuhu*

anyway, sabi ni Erick, di daw ako mukhang 32. oh, hah?! hehe. Pero tong si Jaime Antonio, sabi sa kin, 38 na daw ba ko... lintek. Siya kaya yung mukhang 38. Joke! haha. *peace tayo, Jaime! Arriba Letran!*

Mukhang mapapasubo na naman ako sa oral nito (ang fanget pakinggan!!! ew!!!)... so, i think i really need to review before coming to class. Buti na lang Wed and Fri lang sked ko ngayon... i have time to spare.


Thursday, September 27, 2007

on HMOs

kanina, pumunta akong Intellicare para magpacheck-up. Kasama dun ang pagpapakuha ng dugo, urinalysis, ganun... eh papakuha ng lipid profile whatever, so kelangan, fasting.

pagdating ko dun, siyempre andun na naman yung imbyernang babaeng nasa front desk (na itatago natin sa pangalang Manang Blowfish)... you give her your card and she'll give you a referral or something... basta dun ka muna pupunta. maraming tao.. andun na ko.. la akong magagawa but to wait.. pero lintyak! ang bagal niyang kumilos... kwento dito... nood ng tv dun.. inom ng tubig... basta, ang daming kaartehan...

so nung tinawag na niya ko, sabi niya, 2-5 pa daw yung sked ng nephro sa MMC. Sabi ko, pwede ba na pakuha na ako ng blood kasi ganun din naman rerequest ng doctor, she can check kako the records, laging ganun... and besides, covered naman... sabi ko nga kasi i fasted.

aba, ang taray na hindi daw pwede. so sabi ko, i cannot wait and come back at 2, so sabi ko pacheck up na lang muna ako with one of their own doctors para lang mabigyan ako ng order for tests... again... ang daming ginawa.. swipe the card lang, it took her 30 minutes... tapos she gave the card to the nurse, the nurse took another 30 minutes... when the doctor called me, she was kind enough to give me a prescription naman for my Recormon injections, and the request for the tests.

Again, i have to give it to them for verification... biglang sabi ng nurse...

"ma'am, hindi na po kayo pwedeng patest today."

*sana nakita niyo mukha ko*


"kasi po fasting to dapat."

"oo nga... gutom na nga ako eh."

"opo nga. eh ano'ng oras ba kayo huling kumain?"

"around 7 or 8"

"opo. OVERfasting na po kayo."

*sana nakita niyo talaga reaction ko dito. as in.*

"that's precisely my point! kanina sinabi ko na sa front desk yan.. na nagfasting ako so i need to have the tests done agad."

"eh kanino ba kayo nakipag-usap? sana po tinanong niyo muna sa aming nurse."

*muntik ko na silang batuhin ng mineral water*

in the end, sabi ko na lang, gawin na yung pwedeng gawin na hindi kelangan ng fasting. so, okay daw. kelangan na namang itawag sa lintek na head office para aprubahan ang tests. si manang blowfish na naman. ang dami pang tinanong.

tapos pagdating ko sa Medtech, yung guy na kumuha ng dugo, kakatawa naman coz parang ang simple lang niyang kumuha ng dugo... walang "ok, take a deep breath, make a fist.." na mga usual na litanya ng mga bampirang yun.

sabi niya lang..

"next time ma'am kain pa rin kayo *tusok* ng mga 10am *hugot* ng gabi *stick a cotton ball* para di kayo ma-overfast. basta po 10-12 hours lang ang fasting"


"So, kelan ko makukuha result?"

"tomorrow po, tutusok po ulit tayo ha... para sa lipid profile, 10pm po kain kayo mamayang gabi."

sabi ko di pwede tomorrow agad coz fresh pa yung tusok kanina. pwede na daw. sabi ko hindi pa. ma'am pwede na, sabi niya. magaling na daw yun.

sabi ko...

"alam mo, hindi pa... kasi nung naconfine ako sa MMC, they did that, sumirit yung dugo sa dating butas, natalsikan yung medtech sa mukha."

and that made him shut up. ang tigas ng ulo eh. eto na nga, o... may pasa na.

hay... i miss Maxicare! I never had this much drama with them.


i deleted my online business contacts... coz they're flooding my inbox! di ko na nakikita updates from my real friends. anyway, sorry sa mga dinelete ko... i'm not fond of buying via online din naman eh. i'm not much of a loss.