Thursday, December 27, 2007

Tony Chronicles Part 3

Kumain kami sa Kenny Rogers' nung 17th with Daduds. Nung nasa counter na ako to order, lapit si Letku.

"mommy, sa akin chicken ah."

AKO: ok.

LETKU: tsaka gusto ko may Mang Tomas.

AKO: baby, gravy?

LETKU: hindeeee.... Mang Tomas... basta Mang Tomas gusto ko.



Nagkikilitian kami ni Dale sa kwarto nang bigla siyang pumasok. Napatigil ako bigla na parang caught-in-the-act ang dating.

LETKU: Wah!!! kunwari ka pa! Nakita ko yun! Naglalambingan kayo! Lagi na lang siya! Siya! Siya! Kasi mas mahal mo yan!


para naman akong nahulihang may kabit.


Kanina nagpaalam si Dale sa nanay ko na magko-computer siya. Pinayagan naman. Eh nagpaalam din si Letku. Gusto niya, siya ang mauna. Napagalitan siya ni Mommy. At sabi sa kanya eh umuwi na nga siya sa Lola niya (byenan ko). Hala! Ngumawa. Sabay hawak sa telepono, akmang tatawagan ang Lola niya... mega hagulgol siya sabay sabing:

"wala namang nagmamahal sa kin...."


di naman tinuloy ang pagtawag. nagkulong sa kwarto.

ayun. pag uwi ko, may pasalubong ako sa kanya, syempre pa. *hehe*

what happened during the Holidays

put up the tree with Tony. Dale was in charge of the star.

accompanied Mom when she bought her new N70.

bought gifts for family and friends with Mom (and sometimes, Anea and the kids).

finished Level 4. Failed the exam, but passed the Level. Galing, di ba... hehe.

met with my classmates at Greenhills for dinner. Was stuck with Jaime (a classmate), drunk (he, not me), in the MRT. Oh, God. Don't ask what happened.

met with Erika, Dan, Moe, Bon, and Chito... ate at Bubba Gump. Met with Ronald and the kids after to buy the kids' new clothes. Ate at KRs.

bought a lantern with Mom and Nald.

went to my Tito's house in Cavite, stayed there the whole day.

celebrated Dale's birthday, both at school and at home.

made some Christmas decorations (balls and paint and glitter)

completed the 9-day 4am mass (simbang gabi).

went to Ela's baptism and saw my relatives, including Chits who came home this year.

went to Ronald's friend's son's (whew) birthday party at KRs. yes, sinama niya kami. aba... hehe.

received lots of presents... and comments!

spent Christmas eve with my family and relatives.

went online and chatted with Dad.

chatted with someone who suddenly remembered me because of DSL, and told me to stop wearing glasses. duh?! Vic, bulag ako pag alang glasses. Wait til i get contacts ulit.

overslept, forgot and was not able to go to Church on Christmas Day. yes, i felt so bad. don't rub it in.

watched Enteng Kabisote with the whole family. yes, including Bea. Oops... excluding Keith and Eka coz they weren't at home that time.

Today, watched Sakal, Sakali, Saklolo with my Mom, Anea, and my mom's friend. Ate at Amici, then at Starbucks, then had juice from Naked. Anea bought me some shades. We bought some toys for the two kulits.

Dale slipped, banged his chin on the stairs and got a bad booboo... aw... it looked so bad in person. it's swollen. i thought he lost his tooth. the inside was clipped as well. f***.

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whew! i think that sums it up... i'm sure i forgot a lot of things to include here. i think i had only 2 or 3 free days from the 2nd of week of December til today.

i am sooooooo tired. so tired, that i spent Christmas eve injecting myself with Recormon, lying down, gettin up again, and downing myself in herbs. so tired, that my brother and sister-in-law and my mom started fussing over me and talking about transplants. wah!!!

but, i'm a lot better now. i told them to take it easy with all the fuss. anyone who got 3 hours of sleep for 10 days straight will feel freaky tired like me, too. no biggie.

anyway, the rush is over... New Year's is not so tiresome in our house. I can breathe normally now. =)

Tuesday, December 18, 2007


busy days are here again! so, wala munang sharing of thoughts ngayong mga araw na ito... pictures na lang muna ha... birthday party ni Dale sa school tomorrow. Halos araw-araw ang lakad ko. i start my day by waking up at 3:30am to go to the 4am mass. and i sleep 12mn na... so, goodluck sa 3 hours na sleep. wah! merci!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

a letter to someone who is destined to wipe away my tears.

i know this is sudden. i know this is stupid. but here i am, about to bring stupidity to the next level.

how are you? are you okay? have you been eating well? coz i sure wouldn't want you to starve to death and not be able to meet you.

anyhoo, today has been an effing sad day for me. (hey, it's okay for me to use swear words, right? It's not like you're 12 or something.) well, back to the sad day. I was with someone. For 16 years, I have been with someone. And today is the first time that I have ever convinced myself that it should never have started in the first place.

No, don't get me wrong. I don't have regrets. I only have tears to shed, and hopes to find. And in time, I know I will be well. In time, I will meet you, and I am hoping that you are different. That you can love and be loved in return. That with you, my tears will not drown me. That your arms will comfort me. That we'll have fun pictures together, and we'll hold hands while watching the sun set. That we'll grow old and never look back. You, me, and my kids, and maybe yours, as well, if you have some.

Sure, we can fight some time. We can hurt each other with words, with indifference. But we are not going to finish the day without saying we are sorry. Yes, we. Not you, nor I. We. Because for a relationship to work, two should become one and be separate at the same time.

Yes, there will also be times that we will feel the need to end things... to start anew... and find someone else. But this I am sure, I will also never regret finding you. For you have wiped my tears away and didn't flinch at the sight of my weaknesses.

Would you like to know me? I am Rachelle. I'm 5'4", weighs a hundred and twenty. I'm an aries and I like to read. I am not sexy, or fair, or tanned. I don't even have big boobs or long legs. I like taking pictures, mostly of myself. I have a handful of words stashed in my brain, and zero recipes to cook. I can do the laundry when I have to, but I hate it when I have to clean the bathroom.

I dream in pictures, and I sometimes dream of you, though you're face is not clear. I haven't dreamed in monochrome, and for that I am thankful. Coz I believe that the world is best viewed in color.

If you liked what you've read, come find me. Look for me. Relieve me from my misery.

And to make it easier for you to find me, close your eyes and dream of me. That's where we'll find each other. In a world with no boundaries, no pretentions, no judgments, and no fears.

And as I've said before, bring coffee, okay?

just ask me.

and i won't say no.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Monday, December 10, 2007

confessions of a Starbucks junkie.

i like coffee. i like it in the morning. i like it at night. i rarely like it in between. so, instead of hot coffee, i take fraps.

but with all the poor children in the streets... all the beggars asking for pennies... the rising expenses for my medicines... gasoline... food... bills... i can't find it in myself to go inside Starbucks everytime I see one. Ergo, in all the years that they offered the planner, I have had it only once. And it is when Ronald helped me fill up my card by having their office meeting there. 13 stickers all at once. Hooray for me.

But yesterday, I went to SM Manila to buy something, coz I couldn't find it in Makati, and there was Starbucks. Ooh.

Inner Self: control yourself, coffee freak.

I went to National, SM, and all the different stores there, and purchased my items. And when I was on my way home, there it was again. Starbucks was calling me in. Making me drool.

One step closer. Two. Yes, sometimes, I have no self-control.

"tall toffee nut latte frap, please."

If I had one wish...

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end,
It would just begin.
If I had one wish, you would be my boo,
Promise to love you,
Trust me I'll trust you.

Friday, December 07, 2007

the quest for a planner

yes. a planner. a simple diary for everyday notes. 2008 na kasi eh.

Starbucks? Pwede. Kaso lang, magastos. 24 drinks. Ngayon, kung may mabait na magbibigay... *hehehe*

Belle de Jour? Pwede. Kaso lang, masyadong girlie.

National Bookstore generic? Mura nga, kaso lang... Kakasawa eh. Too impersonal.

Ergo, I made one for myself via Pagemaker. Simple. Clean. In white bond paper. In spanish, mind. With spanish idioms. I uploaded a couple of nice fonts to use. And it turned out okay. Now, I just need to have it binded somewhere.

It's clean now. Let's wait til I get to use it. *haha*

(may picture sana to... kaso lang, nagloloko ang panglipat ko ng picture: Micro SD card from my cel, read via my mp3 player with Micro SD slot) Kaya, imaginin niyo na lang hitsura ng malinis kong planner.

Paid trip to Vigan, anyone?

A call for volunteers and donors!

Type mo bang mag-volunteer for special children? O baka naman type ito ng kapatid, pinsan o kaibigan mo. Open din ito sa mga professionals na may ORAS sa ganitong mga gawain.
Puwede rin ito bilang seminar para sa mga mga guro sa regular at special schools, social workers, PT/OT, nurses, parents at sino mang nagnanais ng kasanayan sa paghawak at pag-aaruga sa mga batang kapansanan.
Join na kayo sa orientation at training on January 27, till April 6, 2008 (tuwing Sunday lang) 8:00 - 6:00 Eulogio Rodriguez Elementary School, Cavo Sanchez Street, Hagdang Bato Itaas, Mandaluyong City (Shaw Boulevard through Bonifacio Street, ang landmark ay 7-11 sa Shaw malapit sa Jollibee Acacia Lane).

From Boni Avenue (EDSA), take jeep with a Gabby's signboard and baba 7-11 pagkatapos ng San Felipe Nery Church, then take tricycle to Cavo Sanchez (mismong school na). From Crossing EDSA naman, take Quiapo jeep, baba na sa Bonifacio Street (landmark 7-11 pagkatapos ng Jollibee Acacia Lane.

Ang training/orientation na ito ay para sa mga gustong makasama sa Gabayan 2008 sa Vigan, Ilocos Sur sa April 11-20, 2008 o para sa sinuman na ang interest lang ay mahasa ang kasanayan sa pag-hawak at pag-aaruga sa mga batang may kapansanan. Ang Gabayan ay isang summer camp para sa mga batang may espesyal na pangangailangan. Puwede ninyong ipasa ang impormasyong ito sa mga taong inaakala ninyong interesado o di naman kaya, i-print mo pati attachment at i-post sa bulletin board ninyo.
Punta kayo sa lugar na nabanggit at hanapin lang si Kuya Jherrie, Kuya Riki, Ate Virna, Kuya Doc, Ate Sheen, Ate Elaine at Kuya Archie.

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Aasahan po namin kayo.


2007 PNVSCA Outstanding Volunteer Organization

Thursday, December 06, 2007

i'm not destruction...

i was chatting with a friend yesterday, and he went all mushy and told me how magnificent i was i touch the lives of other people...

that i am a light.

dyaran! thus, the title.

pwede na kong tumayo ng maganda and exlaim:

"Max... I am light!"

(para sa mga di alam ang pinagsasasabi ko, maghanap kayo ng pirated DVD ng Sharkboy at Lavagirl)

Weniwei... di ko alam kung makikipagkulitan ako sa kanya, and tell him NGE! MAGTIGIL KA!

Sabi nga ni Jef, di daw ako marunong tumanggap ng compliment. Siguro nga. Kaya di ko na kinontest. Sige na nga, kumbaga. Tutal nanay na ko. 'Ilaw' ng tahanan. As if.

Marami ba akong na-touch? Di nga... pag iniisip ko naman, parang ang babaw naman ng lahat eh. Parang feeling ko, moral obligation ko lang naman ang makinig sa mga tao pag gusto nilang magkwento... ang mag-offer ng nalalaman... ang magmahal ng mga taong naiiba... ang magmahal sa mga batang may kapansanan... ang magsakripisyo para sa mga anak... ang magpatawad ng asawang nagkasala... ang makipagkaibigan... ang magsulat minsan ng mga nakakaantig ng damdamin... hindi ba?

So, ano'ng kakaiba sa mga ginagawa ko, eh nagagawa niyo rin yun, sigurado ako. Maybe without you knowing.

Yun lang naman. Yun lang ang opinyon ko. Nothing special with what I have done. And what I have been doing. I just love easily. I forgive easily.

Siguro isa lang ang aaminin ko na sinasabi ng lahat na meron ako. Meron akong LOVE. A big heart to hold everything and everybody in. No, not strength. For I am not strong. I have my own weaknesses. I have my moments. I died several times, but I came back again. Lived again. and again. and again.

Sabi nga nila, ang tibay ko. Kung sila daw ako, wala na... nagpakamatay na sila. Well, it is no secret that I have had suicidal tendencies. That I have thought and felt death wandering in the shadows... but I do not fear the dark...

For I have the gift of sight. of finding the good in the bad. after the bad have ruined my life's puzzle, I find the missing pieces, still jumbled up somewhere in my heart.

So, if I have touched your lives, no gratitude is needed. I do not wish to hear praise or receive gifts. This is who I am. It is in my nature. This is me.

I am Lavagirl.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

i'm not weird. i'm just different sometimes.

gaya-gaya ako kay Ian.

nothing really weird. just that when i'm watching a movie alone, and I have a burger (chicken) and fries... I put my fries inside my burger before I eat it. I rarely do it when I'm with friends coz they might think I'm weird. Is that weird? =)

I collect turtles. But, if it's floating in the ditch, I'm sorry, if I don't have anything to catch it with (if it's alive), then I'd let it drown. Poor thing. I only have one live turtle. Others are stuffed, others are jewelry pieces.

Yes, I can't swim. Literally. I'm claustrophobic. I'm afraid of sharks. Of jellyfish. I like looking at the sea, though.

I've driven a car twice. No, I don't have a license. Do not wonder why.

I've been decorating our Xmas tree for as long as I can remember.

I have not worn proper shoes for super long. Always sandals and flip-flops.

Malamigin ako. Simula ngayong tag-lamig, I cannot watch a movie without a jacket on. My teeth will chatter.

The farthest place I've been from home was Cebu.

I believe that Amici de Don Bosco's chocolate with nuts gelatto and Pasta Montanara are like drugs. They're addictive. Like laced brownies. *jajaja*

I hate pills. All of them. Coz I have to take them.

Kinalbo ako nung bata ako. My mom was razor-happy in the late 70's. Or whoever did shave my head.

I did not study really well coz I'm tamad. Ask anyone. Major tamad. So, all the medals were products of genes, not hard work.

Since I'm tamad, I rarely clean my room. But when I do, it's like I renovated.

I learned to eat Kare-kare because of Ronald.

I eat pancit, but not the laman. Noodles lang. Ronald eats them for me. There are a lot of things that I don't eat, that he does. So there. Just imagine what we're like when we're together sa handaan.

I hate super loud music, yung walang sense yung lyrics, at puro sigaw.

Pag nagustuhan ko yung kanta, I play that over and over hanggang magsawa tenga ko.

Pangit ako pag gising. Super pangit ako pag tulog. I snore when I'm tired, too. I even talk. I don't walk though. Unlike Anea who sleepwalked once.

I have Ian for a friend. Major weird, huh? *jajajaja* Peace tayo! Text mo ko for Amici.

Saturday, December 01, 2007

you can stand under my umbrella

dedicated to someone who made my burdens easier to bear...
you know who you are.


You had my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
Maybe in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the Dark
You can see shiny Cars
That's when you need me there
With you I'll always share

When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella eh eh)

These fancy things
Will never come in between
You're my entity
Here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard
Together we'll mend your heart

When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella

You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella

You can run into my Arms
That's okay don't be alarmed
(Come into Me)
(There's no distance in between our love)
Gonna let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more ooohh

When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)

It's raining
Ooo baby it's raining (raining)
Baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining
Ooo baby it's raining
Come into me
Come into me